Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Faith

As I looked at my husband lying in the hospital bed with IVs hooked up to him, the thought ran through my mind, I can't do this...again. Steve had a minor procedure done and he was lying in a hospital bed, and I was on the verge of panicking. In my mind I knew everything was going to be fine, there was very little risk. But what if.....what if something went wrong. What if he didn't come out and he was gone. What if they found something that would lead to more treatments and more hospital visits. WHAT IF?? Almost as soon as I started to panic, and warm feeling came over me and I thought, if the "what if" happened, I know I would be fine. Not because I had been a widow before, but because I knew the Lord would be by my side. I was able to get through everything with Rob, with the Lord's help. I could never of done it on my own. I had seen the Lord answer my prayers and bless my family in so many different ways that I knew He would be there again when I need Him. I knew this with every cell of my body. The Lord is there for you and for me. Sunday our lesson in Relief Society was on faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. We talked about how you build faith with the little things every day. Praying, reading the scriptures, and attending your church meetings. There are many little things we do everyday, with faith, believing in certain outcomes. For example; we have faith that if we run everyday that we are getting into better shape. We won't get into better shape by only running once a month. And when you first start running to get back onto shape, it takes awhile to see your efforts pay off. But it does happen after time. You do not get into shape just because you want to. It takes time and work. Same with faith. It takes time and work (studying the scriptures, prayer, keeping the commandments). I wouldn't have been able to have sufficient faith to go through my trials if I started praying the day we found out Rob had cancer. If I didn't already know that the Lord does answer prayers. I knew the comfort that came from having the habit of reading my scriptures. It does take a lot of work to have faith, but honestly having a great amount of faith makes the trials a lot easier. I have seen the Lord bless my life during the hardest time anyone could ever imagine. The spirit testified to me, as I looked at Steve in the hospital, everything would be fine with the Lord's help. I know this to be true. I have seen it in my life again and again.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Pure Joy

There are few times in your life when you feel pure joy. Typically pure joy comes through some type of service. As it states in the scriptures, "when ye are in service of your fellow beings ye are in the service of your God." As we serve others, we are doing things for them that sometimes they cannot do for themselves. We understand our dependence on one another, but moslyt we understand how we cannot make it through this life without our Saviour. There is no other way.
Being a mother is one of the most selfless jobs on the earth. There seems to be more complaints than thank yous, more eye rolling than help, and most of all some how our children are smarter than us! I love being a mother. It was hard during the toddlers years. I put my life on hold, so I can be the mother the Lord wanted. (Trust me I am in no way saying I am a good mother, just ask my children.) Everyone has said, enjoy these years, they go by so fast, which they do! I have found the good out ways the bad, thank you starts to come more sincerely, and they realize you were the smartest mother ever (not quiet there yet with my children, but I am sure there with my parents!)
Today I had one of the most rewarding feeling ever. Jake lives in his big brother Robbie's shadow. Robbie is faster, smarter and stronger than Jake. Not a day goes by that he doesn't let Jake know this. We tell Robbie and Jake all the time, this is only because Robbie is older, the field will level out once you both are a little older. Where as Robbie is a natural athlete, Jake needs to work very a little harder. This week was football try outs. There is an A team and a B team. I don't want to get into all the million of things wrong with youth sports, but still there are two teams. As you would think the A team gets to pick all the players they want and all the other players go on the B team. This is Robbie and Jake's second year playing football. Last year we missed try outs due to a family vacation, so of course theyboth were put on the B team. Not saying they would have even made the A team if they were in town, but most of these boys have been playing together since second grade and very few boys get a chance on the A team. Neither of my boys wanted to go to try outs this year. Robbie was already on a team, since Steve is helping coach. Jake didn't want to try out, because he just figured he was already going to be on the B team so why try. I talked to Jake and told him to do his hardest no matter what! Jake is so stinkin cute! This is a boy that needed to be told not to smile while he played sports. He just loves to play! Yesterday when I picked Jake up from try outs, he told me he thought he made the A team. I said that would be good, but there aren't many spots open on the team. I didn't want him to get his hopes up, but knowing Jake he would be happy with whatever team he was put on. This morning I went to pick him up he walked over with the biggest smile I have ever seen. I rolled down the window and asked what was up and he said, Mom I made the A team. I jumped out of the car and gave him the biggest hug ever. I can't even explain the joy I had for him. I totally started crying! I honestly rather have my kids be far more successful than me. The joy is like no other. It's kind of selfish because seeing them succeed is a greater feeling than I get when I do anything good. Being a parent, you understand your Heavenly Father love for you. You began to understand how He wants you to succeed in life. He wants you to be happy. Some times things in life seem too hard, but He knows if we try our hardest, we will be happier. I love ALL my children. Not a day doesn't go by that I don't thank my Heavenly Father for all my blessings. I know all I have is a blessing from the Lord!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Be Grateful

I had the wonderful chance of meeting the Prophet, President Thomas S. Monson. Steve and I were at game 3 of the Jazz/Lakers series. As we were sitting in our seats waiting for the game to start, we hear someone say, "win, win, WIN!" We were surprised to turn around and see President Monson walking into the suite with a big smile on his face. With such a close game, most everyone there was glued to all the action on the court. At half time I was up getting ice cream when President Monson got up to stretch his legs. He smiled and shook my hand. I looked into his eyes and said, "I just want to say thank you." He looked at me with questioning eyes and replied, "for what?" I was shocked by his response, in my head I was thinking, for everything; your wonderful talks, leading the church, being a special witness of Christ, where do I start? I simply said to him, "for everything." I didn't know how to express how much gratitude I had for the countless hours he devotes to the church. The many trips he must travel to lead the Lord's church. For absolutely everything he does for me, someone he doesn't even know, whose life he had blessed in different ways I can't even start to list all the comfort and counsel he has given me in talks. After I said those two simple words, he just smiled, waved his hand in such a humble way, like you don't need to thank me, I haven't done anything special. We both went back to watching the game and he quietly left after the missed shot at the end of the game. I have thought how wonderful it was that I had a chance to personally thank the Prophet for all he does. I know how lost and miserable my life would be without a living prophet in my life.

I have been thinking a lot about being grateful and having a positive attitude and how these two principals go together. People who tend to be grateful, tend to look at the positive side of things. Is it possible to be thankful for trials? Absolutely! Here are two different accounts of the same situation found in 1 Nephi 17. First here is Nephi's account:
And it came to pass that we did again take our journey in the wilderness; and we did travel nearly eastward from that time forth. And we did travel and wade through much affliction in the wilderness; and our women did bear children in the wilderness.
And so great were the blessings of the Lord upon us, that while we did live upon raw meat in the wilderness, our women did give plenty of suck for their children, and were strong, yea, even like unto the men; and they began to bear their journeyings without murmurings.
And thus we see that the commandments of God must be fulfilled. And if it so be that the children of men keep the commandments of God he doth nourish them, and strengthen them, and provide means whereby they can accomplish the thing which he has commanded them; wherefore, he did provide means for us while we did sojourn in the wilderness.
And we did sojourn for the space of many years, yea, even eight years in the wilderness.
And we did come to the land which we called Bountiful, because of its much fruit and also wild honey; and all these things were prepared of the Lord that we might not perish. And we beheld the sea, which we called Irreantum, which, being interpreted, is many waters.
And it came to pass that we did pitch our tents by the seashore; and notwithstanding we had suffered many afflictions and much difficulty, yea, even so much that we cannot write them all, we were exceedingly rejoiced when we came to the seashore; and we called the place Bountiful, because of its much fruit.
Now here is what Laman and Lemuel had to say:
And thou art like unto our father, led away by the foolish imaginations of his heart; yea, he hath led us out of the land of Jerusalem, and we have wandered in the wilderness for these many years; and our women have toiled, being big with child; and they have borne children in the wilderness and suffered all things, save it were death; and it would have been better that they had died before they came out of Jerusalem than to have suffered these afflictions.
Behold, these many years we have suffered in the wilderness, which time we might have enjoyed our possessions and the land of our inheritance; yea, and we might have been happy.

See the difference? When we go through difficult times, do we blame our loving Heavenly Father? Do we look for those around us to blame? Or do we look at how we have we are given a chance to grow? Do we look at what can we learn from this situation? I often think of Rob's response to being told he had stage 4 cancer:
It reminds me one of my favorite stories in 3rd Nephi. The righteous people have been awaiting the miracle of the Savior's birth. They waited "steadfastly​" without a murmur. The night was now at hand, the Saviour was to be born that very next day or they would be put to death. How does one handle that? What do you tell your children that evening you prepare for bed? Do you beg for your life and that of your love ones?
As Nephi prayed for his people he heard The Lord tell him to "Lift up his head and be of good cheer...on the morrow come I into the world." I doubt sweeter words had ever been uttered to Nephi! What an answer to a simply heart felt prayer. Never did he ask for what to do, or can Thou change this or that. Simply, please help us know what to do.
As I look at my family and where we go from here I think those simple things. What does The Lord need us to learn? Are we willing to do it?
I love you all,
Robbie
I wouldn't say we were grateful for the cancer. But this I do know; I would not know how to rely on the Lord with going through this trial. I would not know power of the scriptures, prayer, fasting and service. I would not know how many people cared so much for us, willing to make enormous sacrifices to help our family. I didn't know how much my faith and dependence on the Lord would grow. I am thankful for so much. I feel so abundantly blessed, actually I know I am so abundantly blessed. I have received blessing from the Lord, through so many people, they can't be named. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Remember to count your blessings name them one by one. Count your blessings see what God hath done.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Murmuring

I wonder if it is a teenager thing, but murmuring could actually drive me to insanity! I think my children love to complain, just for the art of complaining. I have said to them, even if I give you a million dollars I am sure you would complain about how hard it is to spend that much money. This morning as I was reading in my scriptures, I came across one of my favorite stories in 1 Nephi. This story actually made me worry a little bit about the amount of murmuring my children actually do...
First let's start in 1 Nephi 3:1. Notice how after Nephi had a spiritual experience with the Lord, he first went to the tent of his father. Nephi desired to know the things his father knew, and the Lord blessed him with this knowledge. I had never noticed before how he than went first to share his wonderful experience with his dad. What a wonderful insight to their close relationship. Lehi than tells Nephi of something hard Nephi and his brothers are going to have to do for the Lord. They needed to go back to Jerusalem and get the plates of brass from Laban. Lehi said, "I have not required it of them, but it is a commandment of the Lord." Those who know the story, understand the difficulties of this commandment. Lehi understood. Nephi and his brothers understood. I LOVE verse 6 and what it says, "Therefore go, my son, and thou shalt be favored of the Lord, because thou hast not murmured." Nephi is being favored, yes favored of the Lord because he did not complain about what the Lord has asked him to do. The Lord did not say, I love you more than your brethren because you choose the right. No, the Lord says you are favored for not murmuring. I tell my children this all the time. One child will be favored over the other for being obedient. It doesn't mean I love one child more than the other, it just means the one child who listens to me and does what I ask without murmuring, I am usually a lot nicer too! Lehi even feels the blessing of having a child not complain. We don't have the account of Lehi telling Laman and Lemuel to go back to Jerusalem, but we can assumed by Lehi's response to Nephi's willingness, (my father was exceedingly glad) that things didn't go as well with the older brothers.
The Lord gave Nephi a commandment and expected him to fulfill it. This is the part of the story I love! Just because we have been giving a commandment to do something, doesn't mean it is going to be easy! Also, it doesn't mean we will be able to do it on our first try! After their first failed attempt, Laman and Lemuel were ready to head back to their father and throw in the towel. But Nephi said no! Not till they accomplish what the Lord had commanded them to do (1 Nephi 3:15). Nephi said, "let us be faithfil in keeping the commandments of the Lord" (1 Nephi 3:16). Going to get the plates was a commandment of the Lord and Nephi was going to keep the commandments. Nephi then had to persuade (1 Nephi 3:21) his brothers into being faithful to the commandments of God. If you have to "persuade" someone into keeping the commandments, the chances are they are not keeping them for the right reason and are likely going to have a change of heart. They tried a second time, and failed! This time Laman and Lemuel started taking their frustration out on Nephi and Sam, until an angel came and said; First stop hitting your brothers and second the Lord will make it possible for you to get the plates. And after the angel left, Laman and Lemuel STILL MURMURED, saying how can the Lord make this possible. They just had an angel tell them they were going to get the plates and they still were complaining! Nephi then goes on to testify of the power of God and how through God the Red Seas were parted and how an angel told them this commandment was possible. Yet they still continue to murmur (1 Nephi 4:4). How destructive is murmuring? I read this account and think: I do not want my children to end up like Laman and Lemule. Through out 1 Nephi you can see how their murmuring brought many trials and difficulties that could have been avoided. When we keep the commandments and are obedient to the will of the Lord, we will be blessed or highly favored of the Lord. Sometimes, no wait, a lot of the time, it will take a huge amount of faith to keep the commandments. And it will seem absolutely impossible to do what the Lord has asked of you. But here is one of many stories in the scriptures that show how the Lord provides a way for those willing to keep His commandments. I also have countless times in my life when the Lord has blessed me for keeping His commandments. Trust me, it hasn't always been easy, and even at times it took countless efforts, but the Lord was always there helping me. I love the scriptures. I love the insights and understandings I receive when I study them consistently. I just hope I am able to show my children the importance the scriptures in their lives. Also that they might possibly ease up on the murmuring!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

A Simple Book


Yesterday we were having Family Home Evening with Steve, Hannah, and Max using Skype. For those of you who don't know what Skype is, pretty much it's a video phone conference. Every Monday we do our lessons together, even though we are states apart. This week we were talking about how different we are all, but how we all together make up a wonderful family. We each went around and shared some different things about ourselves. When it was Ellie's turn one of things she said was how she is reading the Book of Mormon. I felt so proud of her and her choice to read this special book.
The kids have been missing their dad a little more lately than usual. I am sure missing their dad comes from a combination of me getting married, the anniversary of his death, and Easter. Ellie came in my room one night and seemed very upset and sad. I told her when I am sad, I start reading the scriptures and then I start to feel peace. I asked her if she thought reading the scriptures could being her peace. She said yes and went off to start reading. Well for the first week, she carried them around with her everywhere, reading whenever she had a chance. A couple of weeks later I asked her how was her reading going. She said that it's been kind of hard now that she was in 2 Nephi. I just had to smile and tell her, lots and lots of people find 2 Nephi hard to read! She than went on to say, before when she read the scriptures, she was just reading the words not really thinking about what she was reading. But now she was actually thinking about what she read, which made it easier to read.
Yesterday was a very rough day for me! The monkeys had spilled water on my laptop, which now no longer works! This put me into major stress mode! Ellie just started to take over and help me. She got the monkeys ready for bed and picked up the house for me. I have noticed lately a positive change in her as she consistently read her scriptures. I see her want to be more of a peacemaker than a trouble maker. She becomes my little helper and knows exactly what to do to make my life easier. As I was reading the Ensign this morning a wonderful thought came into my mind. Without the loss of Ellie's daddy, would she be reading the scriptures right now? Would she has such a tremendous desire to feel the spirit? Would her faith be growing? Not, that I would wish any trial on any one, but are we growing from what life is trying to teaching us? Do we take the trials in our life and become a better person? I hope Ellie will discover for herself the importance of reading the scriptures everyday. She can start a pattern now in her life that will be a tremendous support, no matter what situation lays ahead for her. She is such a blessing to me. I love my boobalicious!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Exercising......

This morning I was talking with a friend of mine while we were exercising. She was telling me how she missed how knowledgeable she was in the scriptures while she was on her mission. How she just didn't understand where that knowledge went! Then said to me, I never thought I would ever forget all that knowledge. We both knew the answer to her statement...

Here's something frustrating for me... I have worked out pretty much for the last 13 years of my life. The only time I would really take off exercising is right after the birth of my children. I remember going to the gym the day before Ellie was born. I would have gone the day she was born, but we needed to be at the hospital so early! So long story longer, I haven't worked out consistently since I ran the Ragnar Race in June. One would think, I have worked out for 13 years, I can take some months off and be fine! Well that isn't how it works. Those who work out consistently can feel a difference when they take even a couple of days off. You can build up a little reserve, but not much! It has been so hard for me to get back into working out. I never thought it would be this difficult. I love to exercise. I have always made time for it in my life. I know the benefits to working out. I know I feel better and look better when I am exercising! So why is it so hard for me to start back up?

This brings me back to the conversation I had this morning with my friend. Scripture studying is just like exercising in so many ways! But the most important similarity is the consistency of doing it every day. There may come times in our lives when life will get insane and scripture study will go by the way side. Or we may feel there are more important areas in our life that need more attention. But just like exercising, even going a couple of days without studying the scriptures, we feel the difference in ourselves. And the longer we go with studying, the harder it is going to be to get back into the habit. Just like the children of Israel receiving manna from heaven. The manna only lasted for one day (except for the day before the Sabbath). They could not build up a storage of manna for the week they were going on vacation or when they didn't want to go out and collect. Every day the children of Israel would have to do the work to be fed from the Lord. Every day we have the same opportunity to be fed from the Lord. the question is: are we willing to do the work? We were not put on this earth to have an easy life. We are here to prove to the Lord that we choose Him first, no matter the challenges, no matter the ease of life.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Sunday Will Come


On March 6, 2007 my husband, Rob Epperson passed away. We knew the day before that it would be sometime soon, but as for the time, it was any one's guess. I will always remember the night of the 5th of March with tenderness. Most of Rob's closest friends were able to come by and say their good byes. I can't really remember how many of us were in the tiny blue room surrounding Rob. We told stories, laughed, and I saw all these strong men break down and cry as they said good bye to a close friend. After they left, all of Rob's family arrived, not at all prepared for what they would see. Their strong, loud, larger than life brother/son, laying frail and weak in bed. They too now surrounded the bed with tears and stories. The question came to all of their minds, how could this happen? how could Rob of all people leave us? We can't go on with out him? he's the life of the party, the oldest brother who lead us through the hard times. We can't imagine life without him. As we all tried to come to an understanding, we learned to find comfort in prayer and turning to the Savior. Having faith that even though we don't know the answers, that we still trusted in the Lord. I stayed by Rob's side all night. Not wanting to sleep, because I didn't want to miss any of my last moments with him. I just remember praying all night that the Lord would release Rob's spirit from his body. I wanted Rob to be free from all his pain and discomfort. Finally the time come. Dr. Liss had told us what to watch for right before he died, so we knew when it was coming. Everyone was gathered into the small blue room. We all watched Rob take his last breaths and leave this mortal world. The next week was kind of a blur to me. I remember having moments, thinking, this can't be my life. There is no way I am picking out a coffin and flowers for my husband. It was almost best to not think at all, because I could not comprehend reality. During this most difficult time I turned to the scriptures. There I found a comfort and peace that could not be found any where else. I on the day of the first funeral, I was reading in Alma 31 and came across this verse,"O Lord, my heart is exceedingly sorrowful; wilt thou comfort my soul in Christ. O Lord, wilt thou grant unto me that I may have strength, that I may suffer with patience these afflictions which shall come upon me." How fitting were those words to my soul! The scriptures are the one place where anyone can find peace and understanding, no matter their situation.

I have told this story so many times when I am speaking, that I feel as if everyone has heard it. But then I realize very few people I know have actually heard me speak, so I thought I would share it with you all....

Rob was buried on a Friday. Sunday morning Jake, who was only 8 years old at the time, walked into my room and asked where's Daddy? I was confused by this question and asked what do you mean? And Jake said, it's been three days, Jesus was resurrected in three days and it's been three days, so where is Daddy? My heart ache for my Jake. I explained to him that yes Daddy will be resurrected, but not for awhile. The faith and knowledge of my little boy was far beyond his own years. I came across a wonderful talk by Elder Wirthlin the October 2006 General Conference (http://lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-646-11,00.html) called Sunday Will Come. Elder Wirthlin said, " Each of us will have our own Fridays—those days when the universe itself seems shattered and the shards of our world lie littered about us in pieces. We all will experience those broken times when it seems we can never be put together again. We will all have our Fridays. But I testify to you in the name of the One who conquered death—Sunday will come. In the darkness of our sorrow, Sunday will come. No matter our desperation, no matter our grief, Sunday will come. In this life or the next, Sunday will come." I know this to be true. I know no matter hard our lives may seem at a certain time, Sunday will come. I have seen this in my life and I have seen it in other's lives as well. As we trust in the Lord, keep His commandments and turn to the scriptures, we will be blessed. Most likely we won't be blessed in the way we would like. But He blesses us far better than we ever could imagine.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

One speaking out of the dust

Two years ago this morning, Rob couldn't be woken up. I had to make one of the hardest calls of my life to his family and tell them to jump on a plane and come say good bye to their son and brother. At times this seems like another life and at other times it seems just like yesterday. Last night I went through and read some of Caring Bridge. I started from the beginning and read till 3am. I didn't even get pass the April journal entries. I read Andy's talk from the funeral, which brought both laughs and tears. I was amaze by my strength. As I read those entries, I knew what I wrote was from the Lord, not from me. The Lord was my constant companion during those days. I was only being an instrument for the Lord, sharing my testimony of Christ and His ability to bless and comfort. The Lord was showing us, how if we turn to Him during difficult times, He will strengthen us far beyond we could ever imagine. I love the scripture found in Doctrine and Covenants 84:88 "And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for i will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."




A couple of weeks ago I found this card in some of Ellie's stuff. Those who know Ellie, know what a pack rat she is and is always keeping silly things. I just about died when I opened the card and read it. It was if Rob was speaking to me today...

Monday, March 1, 2010

Welcome to Miami

Steve had a conference he needed to attend in Miami and since I have the best babysitter in the world (yes Jessica!!) I was able to join him there! Until this trip we had only spent 4 nights alone with one another. We had such a wonderful time together. Honestly, I can't think of any thing better than, shopping, laying out by the pool reading, and spending time with Steve (not necessarily in that order). Yes, I did get sun burned! I was laying by the pool reading and Steve came up during his lunch break to see me. He asked me, don't you need some suntan lotion? I was like, no I never burn! Well as the night went on, my skin kept getting darker and redder! To give credit, he never did say I told you so!
We finally made it down to south beach on Friday night. It was a little cold (high 60s) but still a lot warmer than the snow I left back in Utah!

My cousin Emilee, who lives in New York, just happened to be in Miami that weekend for her birthday. We met up at the famous Joe's Stone Crabs. We had a great time talking and celebrating her birthday! I truly feel so blessed! Even though it was hard leaving Steve in Houston, I know it is just for a short time before we will be together again. I am just so happy and can't believe my life is this wonderful! (sorry about being so cheesy, I just can't help it)

Monday, January 25, 2010

The Principle of Compensation

I love the Principle of Compensation. I've talked about it a lot in talks and my Christmas letter, but now I feel the need to talk about it more. In October 2008 General Conference, Elder Wirthlin gave a wonder talk titled, Come What May, and Love it. In this talk he mentioned the Principle of Compensation which is: The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. Elder Wirthlin goes on to say, "that which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."

When I first started speaking only 7 months after Rob passed away, I knew that all would turn out well. I knew the Lord was watching over my family and this was part of the Lord's plan in our lives. I could see the many blessings we had in our lives and I had a strong faith that everything was going to be fine. As more time continued on, I knew the Lord was still blessing us, but not in the way I had imagined. As I continued to speak and share my testimony, I would testify that all would turn out right, but I was getting a little frustrated that I could not see the Lord's plan for me. I kept thinking back to the Principle of Compensation and I trusted in an Apostle of the Lord that this would be true for me too! I also knew too well that the faithful are blessed, but not always how we imagine or in the way we want. It is understanding that the Lord knows better than we do in life!

I came across a quote from Elder M. Russell Ballard, "through faith we can find peace, comfort, and the courage to endure. As we trust in God and his plan for our happiness with all our hearts and lean not unto our understanding, hope is born. Hope grows out of faith and gives meaning and purpose to all we do. It can give us comfort in the face of adversity, strength in times of trial, and peace when we have reason for doubt or anguish."

This quote explained exactly what I was doing. Trusting in Heavenly Father's plan for me. Having the hope that all would turn out wonderful. And I am here to testify that all has turned out wonderful. Not how I had imagined, but still more wonderful than I ever expected! Having Steve, Hannah and Max come into my life has been a tremendous blessing. I believed I could have joy again, but really experiencing it, is another story. It is truly wonderful! I am so glad that my faith turned into hope. I am glad I trusted in the Lord, instead of doubting His plan for me. We will all have times in our lives where we wonder if the Lord is answering our prayers, if He is listening to us. We will even have times where we have felt our prayers were not answered. Please know, He is there. Continue to have faith, continue to pray and read the scriptures and you will be blessed for your obedience.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Wedding Pictures


I know it's been FOREVER since I have posted anything and since I am avoiding cleaning my home I thought I should post some wedding pictures. I really did put our wedding together in two weeks! We wanted it very simple. We let our kids plan as much of it as they wanted. They really wanted to dance down the aisle. Our wedding was for our kids and we all had a great time!






































































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